No one gives a damn about her hair.

I hate this time of the morning, no ones up or around. I feel ill, so i cant go for a run yet. I'm so tired i should be in bed. Last night was a taster of whats to come and i don't know how i am going to deal with it. Hopefully it will all go well and I'm sure i will get used to it. I have to. I have options in the ways to get through it. One of them music and films and thank god for them! I depend on them so much at times its ridiculous.

Argh why is the weather nice during the week when I'm stuck in a bloody class room and then shitty at the weekend when i have time to spare!Annoying!! £*&$"£$&"

I have been trying to write lyrics for a song for months but i haven't got anything decent yet, I'm not even sure what i want to write about. I have a plan in place though. Need to find a topic and monitor it for a few weeks write a post about it and use that to turn it into a song. I don't know why i want to do this but i just got the idea into my head while listening to really well worded and brilliant music. I just want to write one song at least that's perfect to me :) Good accomplishment, if i manage it.

Anyway this week i start my strict studying regime, oh fun. I have never followed one of these properly but it is a really awesome plan so i think it will go well. I can't believe i even have a study plan. Normally i just read loads of notes but with things going on this year that are effecting me i need this plan just so i can look at it and know where I'm heading, how much i have done and what i have left to do. At the moment English is a huge concern, its the first exam and we don't get study leave for it irritatingly. I think I'm getting there with it though, that's if i have passed my nabs, if not then I'm screwed.

Anyway, enough about school i hate it. I prefer doing More active and interesting things that get you outside and learning new things and seeing the world. The idea of being stuck in a office really would drive me up the wall. But if it gets me the money to travel the world and buy the things i enjoy then so be it. Only about four weeks of school left now and seven weeks of studying ahead of me. I like the number seven, its a good number so i think it would be a good week to start for the exams. I know i should of started weeks ago but with the nabs and stuff i have been studying for them which i guess counts.

The Rock concert is this week, got practice for it tonight which i really cant be bothered with. Kind of nervous which is suppose to be a good thing. After tonight and the next few practices I'm sure i wont feel as nervous. I think i am more nervous about the practices than the actual performance, because if i get it wrong then and never get it right i have little hope for the actual night of the performance. Sure it will be fine..... :P

As you can probably tell i don't have anything specific to write about just the random thoughts that run through my head while I'm typing. One thing that is bothering me is this annoying pencil. Every time we end up in the same area it decides to scribble everywhere and make a scene about it. I wish i could just rub it out, but unfortunately it has friends with pens that i like to use so i can't do much about it, even if they don't think very highly of him. Some are even as annoying as him but they keep it among themselves and to be honest i don't care what any of them think or what the pencil think its just i have a lot going on at the moment with needing to get work done and more serious issues this small simple stupid pencil could never comprehend. Its going to end up alone anyway which shit life i have bets on it giving up and diving head first into a sharpener. Hopefully the day its lead breaks i will be there to look over it just to see the look in the pencils face when it realizes the mistakes its made will make me a very happy person. This pencil oh god how to describe how worthless and horrible this pencil is, will be difficult one day you will meet another pencil similar to this one and then! You will know exactly what i mean, these pencils are doomed from the start, its just up to us to watch them reach the high point in their life and slowly begin to fall, this fall will last for the rest of their lives because they don't have the strength life the rest of us to know what its going bad and to turn around and see where we went wrong, there pencils just live in denial until it is to late, when they think they are at a high point we all know they couldn't get much lower.