Sleeping patterns have changed. I now sleep for longer and at times better, although if having deeper sleeps is better i don't know. I wake up often and many times during the night but when i am asleep not much can disturb me apart from my own dreams that wake me. I woke at half 5 this morning, swearing and cursing because it was so earlier and i wasn't annoyed thinking i wouldn't be able to get back to sleep. I woke up at half 7 and i was standing up in my room. I guess i had gone and closed the curtains, and again was really angry. Got into bed and lay there thinking god what a shit day today is going to be, the thoughts of lack of money and everything else i have to do buzzing around my head. I knew i had to get more sleep. I woke up again at half 10. In a OK mood, able to deal with things i could not a few hours earlier. I know when to get up, when i wake up and don't want to scream then its Ok to get up.
I guess to anyone reading this it would be really boring, to be quite honest i have no idea why i wrote it. Just to keep everyone updated i believe, although why sleeping patterns are important i haven't a clue. It might affect my day or the waves of my moods. Who knows.
Watched a great movie last night called sleepwalking. Awesome!! Brilliant. I was sitting the dark watching it and i could watch it again and again and again. Love it. Superb creation, compared to the one i watched before it which was just plain weird and creepy, french thing, no wonder i suppose. Sorry Charlotte but you will agree.
The weather is SO hot, I spend most of my time trying to wear the last amount of clothes possible or sit in a way where there is the least contact between my skin and the clothes. I live on ice cream and cold irn bru, pain killers and trips to the library which is about all my day will consist of. Baby sitting cousin tonight, for a few hours that will be nice their house is always cold. Also found a new way to where my hair so it doesn't get in my way at all or touch my skin at all, very pleasant to wear, how ever stupid i may look, everyone has got to the point where they just don't give a fuck as have i.
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ReplyDeletethankyou for the comment you sent me..
it always does help me that little bit when i read something someone else has written which show that there is actually another person in the world who understands!
when you said that you have yet to see specialists.. i hope that goes okay for you.. it's not very nice when confronted with a doctor who really isn't someone you want to be around..! some of them are lovely though, so i'm sure it'll be fine.. good luck with that. yeah, say hi anytime you like.. i'm here a lot..x